Want to know something funny? Well, I think it’s funny. Ok – so it’s not HILARIOUS funny, but it is rather amusing.
I have a MAJOR crush on someone. That’s right….I’m almost 40 and I have a crush. I’m talking a crush like I had in high school. The kind where all I want to do is find ways to talk to this person. The kind where if I DO have to talk to him, my hands get all sweaty and my heart goes all fluttery.
Now here’s the sad part: I’m 99.99% sure he’s married. Of course he is. FML. If I was less sure of that, I’d totally ask him out for coffee.
As I sit here, watching Steve Harvey in New York and wait to ring in 2018, I can’t help but look back on the last year. 2017 was a real roller coaster for me. It started on such a low, with severe anxiety and panic attacks. Honestly, I never expected to be where I am now. But here I am, in Kingston, surrounded by family, and feeling like my life has a purpose.
Now of course, no NYE post would be complete without a list of goals I want to accomplish in the next year. Without further ado, here they are:
- Get back to a more regular blogging schedule. So to that end, every week I will make two posts: a recipe and something else (it might be about a sewing or knitting project, or a reflective piece, or a rant). Stay tuned for the fun!
- Since I have joined a gym again, I want to make my health a priority. For me, I’ve learned that focusing on my weight is not good – I end up obsessing about food. So, I’m going to focus on my fitness level. My goal is 4 days/week at the gym – 2 cardio and 2 strength training.
- Another fitness goal I have is to officially get back to my running. This means registering for an official race. So I am going to do 3: the Beat Beethoven 4k in June, the Army Run 5k in September, and the Resolution Run in December.
- I want to get myself into a more stable financial situation. Two years ago I posted about a vague goal that would start me on a path of better finances. And I did it. I put on my big girl panties and declared bankruptcy. I’m not going to lie, I felt like a bit of a failure doing it. But, now that it is done, I feel such a weight lifted off me. I have no debt and with my current situation, it’s a perfect time to buckle down and start saving again. So, my goal for 2018, is to save AT LEAST $2400.
There. Those are my goals for the next year. None of them are huge, and none are unmanageable. But if I can accomplish them, then I’ll be even better off than I am right now. And that’s never a bad thing.
I did it. You did it. We survived 2017. I wish everyone the best for 2018.
3 months since my last post. 3 months ago I was in the midst of a big change. Taking a huge leap of faith and hoping it would result in my being much happier.
Here I am, a little over a week until Christmas, and I am flabbergasted by the changes I see in myself. It amuses me no end that this move wasn’t on my radar until the end of August, and when presented with it, I JUMPED at the chance. I’m so glad I did.
I am actually looking forward to Christmas this year. And it’s because I’m not lonely, or bored, or sick of my own company. Every day I am surrounded by the laughter of my youngest nephews. The relationship between my youngest sister and I has improved by leaps and bounds. And I am so grateful for it.
Now that I’m feeling a bit more settled, I hope to get back to regular blogging. My sister and her boyfriend love to eat good food, so I’ve been having a lot of fun cooking. Which means that I’ll be posting recipes again. I’ve been playing the piano more often, so maybe I’ll pull my flute out of the closet too. I’ve been exercising, and as a “Christmas Bonus”, my sister got me a membership to Planet Fitness. I even slogged through a snowstorm last night to go to the gym. Who is this person?!
I have learned a lot about myself this past year. I am stronger than I think. I am braver than I think. And it’s ok to ask for help, because people are willing to help me. Oh, and I’ve learned that I need to stay on my meds. As awful as 2017 started for me, it’s definitely ending on an upswing. And I’m really looking forward to 2018.
A gift from my sister, for the family Christmas Tree