As quickly as a few words can help change the way I think and feel for the positive, it’s amazing how an unanticipated event can cause me to spiral back down.
I had something happen today that has left me feeling shaken, and rather violated. I discovered that my bank card was compromised and an unauthorized transaction occurred. And while the amount taken from my account isn’t very much (only $19.95), I realize that what is really bothering me is the fact that it happened. I will confess to feeling vulnerable and unsafe. I spent most of the afternoon trying to beef up security on my computer, in case my information was gathered that way. When I’m out and use my card, I’m very careful about hiding my PIN. I don’t share it with anybody. And my card has never left my possession.
Dealing with the repercussions
Of course, this has caused my anxiety to go into overdrive, as I now have to deal with the bank for a refund, a card replacement, and possibly even changing my account number. And the fact that this has caused such a spike in my anxiety is making me feel worthless, and like a big giant failure.