Category Archives: illnesses

Doing the Scary Things

This past week I did several things that scared me. Things that pushed me out of my comfort zone. Things that made me face my anxiety head on. Last Sunday, I went into the town’s health food store. They had … Continue reading

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Two Weeks

Two weeks since my last post. Two weeks ago I was so proud of myself. Two weeks can make such a difference. I haven’t posted in two weeks because I’ve been slipping. And all I want to do is hide. … Continue reading

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Putting a Plan in Motion

I have started working with a Case Manager through the county’s mental health services unit. Today we came up with a plan to help me accomplish my goal of getting out of my apartment with no purpose attached. I mean, … Continue reading

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There is Hope

I’m getting there. I’m getting back to myself again. I feel my optimism returning, my zest for life. My energy levels are getting back to normal. Today I had an “a-ha!” moment, a conversation that really solidified my recovery. I … Continue reading

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There is Definite Improvement

I am getting better. I can see the improvements with each passing day. I am now getting out of my apartment 3-4 days a week, instead of only once.  Yes I still feel anxious when I go out, but I … Continue reading

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Today I Hate Myself

Today I am filled with anger and hatred. Anger towards, and hatred of, myself. I hate that I feel like a failure. And I’m angry at myself for believing it. I hate feeling like I can’t function. And I’m angry … Continue reading

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Welcome to my Irrational Brain

Anxiety makes the smallest mole hill into the largest mountain. The rational part of my brain knows this. But the irrational part of my brain takes over and just spirals through all these worst case scenarios. My landlord is coming … Continue reading

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